We are the manifestation of Lord.
We all make choices and do things the way we think its right and at the same time we believe that whatever we are choosing is the best according to our present standard and nothing else could be better.
We have been groomed according to what our parents have witnessed in their childhood and the experience that they have gained since they have started experiencing this beautiful creation of Lord i.e. our beloved world.
Now, when we were growing up, we were told certain ways according to which we should publicly behave and interact. Following and doing this for so long, it has become an integral part of our central living system. In simple terms, the etiquette as we properly call it in human language, has completely over powered our unique system which was trying to evolve and come out in open since we were born until we started learning the society ways of exhibiting oneself.
This particular teaching through our parents and teachers in school, colleges have made us kind of a two-faced individuals. Two faced-individual is a simple stage where we make choices based on waiting mechanism of mind rather spontaneous activity that mind always tends to get involved into.
Every parent tries to protect his/her child from worldly negativity that could harm their child’s physical or intellectual growth. To make sure that in their absence nothing wrong happens to their child and their child is loved, accepted and treated properly by this society, they deliberately teach us the worldly ways of analyzing the situation and coming up with a solution that best protect them from any harm.
We think differently and act according to the surrounding. Our actions do not justify our thoughts. The drastic effect of this way of living has slowly and gradually buried our true nature somewhere deep within ourselves which is far away from our unconscious reach.
We have now come to a point where we most of the times do not actually understanding and know exactly why we made a particular decision or why we acted/reacted in a particular manner in a given situation. We tend to think and reflect back upon our actions and choices and most of the time regret the choices that we made in past which are impossible to change now.
Sometimes, we tend to think that we were too emotional at the time of the choice or we were too stubborn to have changed our decision at that point and later in present, we are amazed at ourselves that how is it possible that “I” reacted in this way. Mind tends to throw all kinds of light for us to come to a conclusion that could justify our choices or actions but most of the times, we make time as our closest friend and wait for it to heal the past.
Have we ever given it a thought that why we repent or regret our past decisions even when we are the ones making those decisions with full consciousness and understanding of the surrounding.
Is it because of making the best utilizing the available scarce resources at our disposal or is it due to the two faced self that has been created by ourselves with the help of our elders since we first got introduced to the outer world i.e. other fellow living beings apart from us, individuals.
In college, my economics class-mates always talked about theories of making best utilization of available resources to come up with the best possible decision that can be made at the given time and I always used to think that if every individual is unique and has his or her own style of thinking, no matter how similar situation it is, the decisions will always differ from each other at any given time.
So, when we all are making best possible use of available resources then how come, choices and the outcomes of decisions taken by different people are different from each other, sometimes, completely in opposite directions. Is it because I was too naïve to understand the phenomenon of choice or is it something that we as individuals are unable to see within or about ourselves.
Now at this point, I personally believe that it’s our own concept and understanding of available resources which are dependent on circumstances or individual perception that determines the choices that a person is going to make. But there is a gap in our immediate thought and the thought at the time of actually making a choice.
This gap is the result of our two separate identities that we have created. One is the outspoken Identity that is unique and divine. It carries all the attributes of our true self, our true personality that we might have been carrying since many births. Second, is the materialistic self that we have developed, designed and maintained based on this society inside which we live and tend to act.
Our true self holds the answers to all the questions that are visible in this world but due to our second self, all these answers are shielded and are never explored by us.
To know this phenomenon, I tried thinking consciously on the instinctive thought that flashes for micro-second in my mind at the time when I have even barely looked at a situation. In case, I am unable to hold onto that particular flash, I get ideas pouring from all parts of the world I have been and people I have met in my entire life during which the only thing I can remember is the question with no immediate answer.
We tend to give a thought to any situation and then start from the square one, where we start analyzing and utilizing the available resources to come up with the best option we possibly can but no matter what, that divine answer to the question remains unseen, unheard or unexplored.
Only if we are able to start consciously working towards identifying that flash regularly and make an effort to catch it, we will be opening doors that will lead us to our real, true self. A self that was once visible and loved by all. A self which was expressing itself when we were born.
Do we think parent’s effort to shield their children from worldly issues are making a child loose its uniqueness in terms of his/her existence and go far away from the inner child? Have we lost the divine touch with our inner child?
Don’t you think that we may never be able to understand ourselves, our true existence until we find that lost child again?
There are endless list of questions that starts finding their ways in words when we actually meditate on this particular thought. At the end the choice remains with us, only this time, it’s not about pleasing others or solving a problem, it’s about finding Us, our true Us.