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Unbalanced Situations or Conscious Decisions….do we really know?… AA, THE TALKING WALL

There always is, a decisive moment in one’s life where consciously or unconsciously we take action.

We are living in a world which begins with a run in marathon and end in one too. During our existence in this life, we go through uncountable moments that becomes are very expressions of our own selves. We start getting noticed by all based on it.

Certain actions, certain movements become our trade mark. We are judged and looked upon because of those repetitive moments that we have made a part of our daily routine.

Since, my childhood I was always looked as an introvert. No need for anyone and no support needed at all. There were many like me and there are many even still and they will continue to be there but are they actually introvert? In fact can anyone be an introvert?

There are times, when we want to be in the middle of a discussion, sometimes away from even a sound of a pin dropping on the floor in the quite atmosphere. There are even times when we create such atmosphere where people come and talk to us, listen to us, and ask about us. Knowingly or unknowingly, we mostly want to be someone who is not neglected but at the same time not over burdened with the pressure of society.

We always want to be balanced in every way. Be it any of those hundred characters that we play in as many hours in a single day. But at the end of the day, if we reflect back upon our day’s events, we can clearly see that our actions have created one-sided moments from which we always want to run away.

Do we know why is it that although we are determined to live a balanced life, still ends up in unbalanced events?

None of us have the truthful answer. We all have our manipulated ways to answer this question. When we are judged, we feel rush of emotions swirling through our body. We feel that lightning striking within our body giving us Goosebumps. We feel so energised looking at the person or group who is making comments about one’s existence that we for a moment forget our very own existence.

These rushes of emotions are not spontaneous. They have been swirling in us from long, they just gets connected to that event taking place and creates an unbalanced atmosphere. At any given point, no matter how hard one tries, these surge of emotions always start on an unbalanced equation leading the one further away from balance.

Isn’t it an experience that all of us had in past and continues to have it at all times of the day, even at present, reading these very words?

Precisely at the time when this surge starts within ourselves, at that every moment another surge starts, probably a bigger one that tries to control the emotional surge simultaneously but due to our tendency to be in the middle of an event as soon as the opportunity arises irrespective of its nature, we tend to ignore this larger surge helping the emotional surge in getting bigger and bigger, leaving the other surge working its way in a smaller way.

But the second surge never stops.

When the momentarily event is over, the emotional surge dies down and our concentration goes towards this smaller surge working its way, which tell us about the pros and cons of the passed event, we realise that there were things that could have been avoided, the outcome may not have been what it was. There was something else that I could have done.

Why such thoughts linger in our mind only after the event has taken place? Is it not possible to have these thoughts looked upon only at the time when the event is about to start? What stops us from having this intellect of decision making power at that very second when the first wave or emotions engulf our intellectual existence and fan our physical existence?

There are so many questions that our mind processes when we think about such simple yet magnificent thoughts and experiences that we go through each second.

Does it mean that we can actually stop events from taking place? Does it mean that we can actually change what is happening? Is it really possible to realise the power of creating & destroying and exhibiting it at the same time?

Can we really say out loud that we have the power to change?

Is there even a remote chance that listening to the second surge might give us peace and stops any event if not favourable to all from happening?

Each one of us goes through this phenomenon of being someone we think we are not, during a day’s life events. On the same night with sleepy eyes, we think over it again and again. Some of us during this phase of half-awake decide whether we will be a part of such events ever again.

 Such powerful thoughts and knowing about this reality, this experience, we tend to start our new day with the same cycle of unbalanced equations, being part of unbalanced events. And again get tied down in the outcome of such events only to later realise, we have just repeated yesterday one more time.

We are the ones judging ourselves, we are the one’s looking up or down on ourselves, we are the ones pushing us to be a part of the unbalanced equation.

Every one of us is responsible and accountable to our own actions. No matter how prompted we will get, no matter how materialistically good or bad the event might be, it’s us who gets in the middle of such unbalanced life events. At that moment, no matter how emotionally unbalanced we are, we are making a conscious choice.

What is our true nature? What is our true existence? Who we really are? We know all the answers. It’s just at the time when we could have found our respective answers, we find ourselves riding the first wave of emotions leading us into the abyss of emotional turbulence away from looking at the light that might enlighten us with Truth.

It’s our life, it’s our body, it’s our thoughts, and it’s our existence. Let not allow them to linger in the wasteland of materialistic world rather carry them in our hands where ever we go to find out the truth about who we actually are.

The question here is….do we really think that we have time to do all this in today’s world? Well…we all know that we have already answered this question by now. It’s only a moment of letting that second surge overcome the first surge of emotions will make you realise the answer.

We Agree or disagree, that doesn’t matter as life will move on irrespectively but on what path…………it will always be a mystery! 

Do we know out True Self or we are just two-faced materialistically created surrogates – AA, the talking wall

We are the manifestation of Lord.

We all make choices and do things the way we think its right and at the same time we believe that whatever we are choosing is the best according to our present standard and nothing else could be better.

We have been groomed according to what our parents have witnessed in their childhood and the experience that they have gained since they have started experiencing this beautiful creation of Lord i.e. our beloved world.

Now, when we were growing up, we were told certain ways according to which we should publicly behave and interact. Following and doing this for so long, it has become an integral part of our central living system. In simple terms, the etiquette as we properly call it in human language, has completely over powered our unique system which was trying to evolve and come out in open since we were born until we started learning the society ways of exhibiting oneself.

This particular teaching through our parents and teachers in school, colleges have made us kind of a two-faced individuals. Two faced-individual is a simple stage where we make choices based on waiting mechanism of mind rather spontaneous activity that mind always tends to get involved into.

Every parent tries to protect his/her child from worldly negativity that could harm their child’s physical or intellectual growth. To make sure that in their absence nothing wrong happens to their child and their child is loved, accepted and treated properly by this society, they deliberately teach us the worldly ways of analyzing the situation and coming up with a solution that best protect them from any harm.

We think differently and act according to the surrounding. Our actions do not justify our thoughts. The drastic effect of this way of living has slowly and gradually buried our true nature somewhere deep within ourselves which is far away from our unconscious reach.

We have now come to a point where we most of the times do not actually understanding and know exactly why we made a particular decision or why we acted/reacted in a particular manner in a given situation. We tend to think and reflect back upon our actions and choices and most of the time regret the choices that we made in past which are impossible to change now.

Sometimes, we tend to think that we were too emotional at the time of the choice or we were too stubborn to have changed our decision at that point and later in present, we are amazed at ourselves that how is it possible that “I” reacted in this way. Mind tends to throw all kinds of light for us to come to a conclusion that could justify our choices or actions but most of the times, we make time as our closest friend and wait for it to heal the past.

Have we ever given it a thought that why we repent or regret our past decisions even when we are the ones making those decisions with full consciousness and understanding of the surrounding.

Is it because of making the best utilizing the available scarce resources at our disposal or is it due to the two faced self that has been created by ourselves with the help of our elders since we first got introduced to the outer world i.e. other fellow living beings apart from us, individuals.

In college, my economics class-mates always talked about theories of making best utilization of available resources to come up with the best possible decision that can be made at the given time and I always used to think that if every individual is unique and has his or her own style of thinking, no matter how similar situation it is, the decisions will always differ from each other at any given time.

So, when we all are making best possible use of available resources then how come, choices and the outcomes of decisions taken by different people are different from each other, sometimes, completely in opposite directions. Is it because I was too naïve to understand the phenomenon of choice or is it something that we as individuals are unable to see within or about ourselves.

Now at this point, I personally believe that it’s our own concept and understanding of available resources which are dependent on circumstances or individual perception that determines the choices that a person is going to make. But there is a gap in our immediate thought and the thought at the time of actually making a choice.

This gap is the result of our two separate identities that we have created. One is the outspoken Identity that is unique and divine. It carries all the attributes of our true self, our true personality that we might have been carrying since many births. Second, is the materialistic self that we have developed, designed and maintained based on this society inside which we live and tend to act.

Our true self holds the answers to all the questions that are visible in this world but due to our second self, all these answers are shielded and are never explored by us.

To know this phenomenon, I tried thinking consciously on the instinctive thought that flashes for micro-second in my mind at the time when I have even barely looked at a situation. In case, I am unable to hold onto that particular flash, I get ideas pouring from all parts of the world I have been and people I have met in my entire life during which the only thing I can remember is the question with no immediate answer.

We tend to give a thought to any situation and then start from the square one, where we start analyzing and utilizing the available resources to come up with the best option we possibly can but no matter what, that divine answer to the question remains unseen, unheard or unexplored.

Only if we are able to start consciously working towards identifying that flash regularly and make an effort to catch it, we will be opening doors that will lead us to our real, true self. A self that was once visible and loved by all. A self which was expressing itself when we were born.

Do we think parent’s effort to shield their children from worldly issues are making a child loose its uniqueness in terms of his/her existence and go far away from the inner child? Have we lost the divine touch with our inner child?

Don’t you think that we may never be able to understand ourselves, our true existence until we find that lost child again?

There are endless list of questions that starts finding their ways in words when we actually meditate on this particular thought. At the end the choice remains with us, only this time, it’s not about pleasing others or solving a problem, it’s about finding Us, our true Us.

It feels good to be lost in the right direction -RG

We go through different phases in life. The phases where thoughts change, realizations occur and we take decisions or work on our dreams are the ones which pave our way to happiness. In other words, we live for the dream which outshines us. What’s happiness to you??? For me it’s the delight of feeling contentment and peace flowing through my heart and mind.

Every dream is special, because we as individual specialize in or attain specialization with course of fulfilling the dream. However, the sustainability and durability of dreams is what people around you will always raise questions about…isn’t it? I would say, probably they are not able to differentiate between thoughts and dreams. The essence of the dream is what matters and we would make it work, if that is actually our dream. Share your dreams and live them without fear as no other individual will think the same way you would.

Quantifying dreams is another common mistake we commit in initial phase itself which kills the dream. Big or small doesn’t matter, what matters is what is your objective to achieve the dream. I agree we need to earn a living but my dear even if the path is filled with roses the probability of having a few thorns cannot be ignored. Believe me once you start walking towards your own happiness things will fall in place on their own….don’t let the problems pull you down , face them , overcome them. You wouldn’t even come to know when the thunder passed by and you would be sailing smooth ….

That’s the moment when you would feel good to be lost in right direction because the gains will shine equally with in you same as they would on your bank account.

Know yourself before knowing anything else. Things will be easy.